The Minor Operation... | Wednesday, May 05, 2010, 10:29 PM |
Today, 5 May 2010, I had my first experience on operation. Actually, the part is just the upper part of my right ear. Haha! It was damn nervous initially... I used to be depressed when people said that I'm expressionless/fierce. I don't know why. But now, it's different! I'm proud of being one. Yet some ppl keep staring at me for no reasons..DONT LOOK AT ME LAH!
Tell you the truth, my expressionless emotion or face isn't natural. I used to be crybaby in the past. Somehow, I transformed & I guessed someone hurt my heart in the past. Leading me to cover up my emotions. In the past, I would laugh when ppl cry in front of me or when I'm watching touching movies/dramas. I just felt that they're funny in some way & can't help to laugh at it. I'm not insulting them or what. At that time, even my family called me heartless...Cold-blooded... And those whatever nonsense... *sigh*
4 ppl in total involved for this minor cut... 2 nurses, 1 of them keep comforting me, even though I said I'm not in pain... 2 doctors, 1 is the official doc to cut the Keloid, another is just watching by the side (Maybe trainee?).
One of nurses made a mark on the lump. The docs came in & introduce, the official one told me a junk of info. After that, he asked me to repeat. I repeat back half of it & forgotten the rest...PS. Then, we proceeded to cover my hair...blah blah.
After that, a nurse injected a fluid to numb the ear. She is kind & caring. She kept asking if I'm in pain or not. She also said this phrase many times, "Sorry dear, this might be a little painful. Bear it awhile." (Or something similar as this...It was like hoaxing a kid...But hey, I'm not a kid. Anyways, I appreciated that since it was my 1st time.)
It wasn't really that pain. It is just a short sharp pain feeling. I didn't shown any expression at all. I hate showing strangers my true feelings. Then, I was covered with a weird looking goggle...Like those alien kind of goggle, looked ridiculous! The doc told me to shut my eyes at all times because the goggle couldn't really cover my whole eyes... Maybe my eyes are too big...0_0
The kind nurse said there will be a loud sound later on. I waited & waited, finally the laser begin. The loud sound I awaited for came too, but it wasn't loud at all as I expected it to be. It was normal windy sound actually. DUH! There is no pain at all, but I can feel it. The slight heating in my ear. Then, the second injection came. This is to prevent the Keloid from growing after cutting. I had asked them to inject my left ear too. A short sharp hot pain. The doc said I look like those brave type, and in my heart I said: "As if... If I am brave, I wouldn't be nervous like madly inside."
Shut up. Don't praise me like that. I hate it. I prefer people praise me for something weird, such as being an expressionless human? I guess I'm weird after all. After these injections is done, I open my eyes wide & look at the trainee doc who was looking at me. I guess I opened my eyes too wide that he looked kinda shock...? Whatever, heck care.
Then, the numbness went off & sharp needle-like pain befall upon to my ear. Ouch! FREAKING UNCOMFORTABLE! I went blank totally. My face didnt't show any expression from when I leave the hospital to when I reach home. I was suppressing the pain. Tonight, I think I gonna suffer. Haha, tonight gonna be fun yet annoying... I wanna feel how painful it might get. I'm not sick or anything...but trying to understand more about pain in the ear. Haha!
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